Sometimes I doubt myself.
“I took you from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said, “You are my servant; I have chosen you and have not rejected you.” Isaiah 41:9
To be honest, I doubt myself on a pretty regular basis – about big and small things. And sometimes, even though I don’t need it, I get help doubting myself.
Sue emailed and asked if I would be willing to write a short devotional. I read her note and immediately felt in my spirit God’s invitation to me. Tears of joy filled my eyes as I felt His call.
But very quickly I heard in my mind, “Who am I? Who am I to speak to others?” Doubt. Memories came of past conversations in which I had doubted what I had shared. All this passed quickly through my mind after reading Sue’s note. So many reasons to say, “no.” Certainly I could come up with an excuse? Doubting my identity. Doubting God’s identity. But despite all the words in my head, only one word rang in my spirit – Yes!
I remembered God’s faithfulness in pursuing me through nearly 30 years of atheism; God forgave me even that. And I remembered it was not about me at all, but it was all about Him. Sharing God isn’t about who I am, but about who He is. There will always be reasons/excuses to say “no.” And just one reason to say “Yes!” Just as in the lead verse – He has chosen me and not rejected me.
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Written by: Yvonne Quirk (Thanks, Yvonne!!)